theredoesnotexist: (unwanted painting ekho)
2025-07-03 11:37 am
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Update jumpscare!

 Still on here! Life has gone off the rails crazy train big time with circumstances and happenings—I think there's even someone new in here, and/or maybe even an absence. We mostly still want to all do intros for ourselves, and sometimes when someone fronts they'll start writing theirs and save it unfinished (Vestige, NOCH, Stranger and Asher wrote a lot of theirs but never posted them because some fields were still blank) but mostly we've been. Kind of a whirlwind in the head. Reached a fever point, posted asking for help, got a couple donations and commissions, then quit our job. So now we have a week or two to complete commissions plus any more that come in while we find another job. I think we can do it, but all of this was Asher's catalyst, and we don't even know if he existed prior to last Thursday.

Anyway. Point is: I don't 100% know who I am right now, I think probably Sender, but I also think I might 90–95% Sender and don't want to write a slightly inaccurate bio. I think my head is on fire in terms of plurality. I feel like a tossed salad.  I think we're just going to take a pause from the bios and see where we settle in a week or so. It's been a week since we even posted last iirc, and that's because I was being attacked by Charybdis. For now I just want to write casual stuff, like symbol meanings, personal talk, fill up some of our tags, and talk about music, art, writing and the beautiful potential of uncertainty.
Okay, yeah, probably Sender.

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theredoesnotexist: (Default)
2025-06-24 03:52 pm
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(no subject)

Now it's time to post a bunch of stuff we've already written and posted elsewhere for absolutely no reason except to have fun and fill up our account and put them other places than just one single Tumblr blog (eggs, basket)

(Also for these ones, instead of writing the music I'm actually listening to, I'm going to the playlist of whoever wrote it and putting it on shuffle, or even better, finding a song on it that really vibes with the content of the post. Honesty takes second priority to a musical consistency. I'm the one posting these for today but it's way more fun to show some of their music tastes than just write the same Ashbury Heights song in the music section over and over (we've been looping Phantasmagoria for days)).

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theredoesnotexist: (centrifed)
2025-06-19 08:43 pm
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(no subject)

I want to start using this more just to use it; filling it out, not caring whether I'm posting too much in a row, long thoughts short thoughts and "here's what happened today" type posts next to each other? I have so many tags here that are mostly empty because I decided what I wanted to post about before I posted about it! Will eventually just start using the premade tags as suggestions for what to talk about lol

I suppose the first and easiest way to do that, using the tags as prompts, would be fleshed-out, in-depth system member intros and 'type explanations, talk openly about some of the delusions and other symptoms we experience and give full descriptions of our stories; things we don't really have on any other platform whatsoever. Talk about our favorite books and music and stuff. Explain our fuckin Unicode bull shit maybe. We'll have to do those in separate posts though for Consistency so here's what THIS post is:

Last night we got locked out of the house. Like big-time. The other day we uhh "misplaced" our housekey, and despite telling our roommates the deal and asking to please not lock the door when they left for 12 hours, you'll never guess what happened. Thank god I am incapable of experiencing true anger and I ended up just hanging out in the library, getting ice cream, listening to my ten billion playlists, taking pictures of centipedes, talking to my partner and walking around eating woodsorrel off the edge of the sidewalk. Several of those are things I woulda been doing anyway

theredoesnotexist: (Default)
2025-06-06 10:17 pm
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However many years since I used this

Either way, last time I did, I was still posting about things like being "ghostkin" and "questioning" being computer 'kin and being unhappy forever. And still using two hyphens instead of em-dashes and en-dashes; ew.

Main updates: in the last year I have had a lot of life events and a lot of revelations that not only are going to make this new attempt go a LOT differently, but also recontextualize all the past ones. Mostly the stuff like how I wasn't "ghostkin," I had straight up Cotard's/was an actual ghost, and now I'm not (alive); replaced the Cotard's with clinical zoanthropy; got top surgery, a different name, disability aids, new goals and mindsets, a QPP and moving plans; I am now the proud parent of 3 beautiful baby story ideas, and you know what they say, they grow up so fast!; oh yeah and I'm an OSDD system and we have been the entire time, which really puts into a better picture all the "G-d, I don't know why I can't stop changing so much and just nail down an identity!" posting on every account I've ever had anywhere.

Alters won't necessarily "sign off" posts, probably, unless they're one of the ones who wants to, which is a category I belong to, so anyone who also does will have their own tag. Most of us are the same guy (Ekho). Some of us really, really aren't. Some of us probably will completely lose interest and won't post at all, but at least this time we're all aware that our sudden abandonment of accounts is because the current frequent fronter just wasn't feeling it as much as the one who started it.

Anyway today I went downtown and hung out in a coffee shop and we were planning to just go home and wallow in ennui until I switched in to save the day and decided to walk down the Art Fest instead so we had a lovely interaction with a stranger: complimented her octopus artwork and engaged in conversation about what makes them fascinating animals and so satisfying to draw. I didn't know how to close the conversation after she waxed complimentary about octopuses, so after I said "I agree!" I ended up saying "thanks" and vanishing, which, even though 7 isn't anywhere near front, was such a hilariously stereotypical "shapeshifter disguised as a human" sci fi moment; I might use that in Transversal lol. Then I ended up in another booth selling ceramics and saw several unfairly gorgeous mugs with tentacle handle designs, and the vendor haggled me down to $30, which was all just so serendipitous that I couldn't not... so I have a cool mug now I guess. I mean another cool mug.

Another W for following curious whims and an L for going home.

I hate how stereotypical we all are that I'm the one who would start this though.

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